Once upon a time
Once upon a time there was a little girl who was a bit different; everyone thought that she was a boy. She was a very kind and caring person but no one would help her just be herself. She was subjected to male behavioural conditioning which culminated in being hypnotised into actually believing that she was a boy.
For many years of her life she couldn't figure out why she couldn't do what the other boys did and why she was so much more comfortable in female company. She had to change her friends every two years or they might have figured out that she wasn't a normal boy. One day a helpful person suggested that she was suffering from depression and should seek help.
It helped for a bit but the depression always came back. A few years later, she discovered another person who seemed to feel like she did and started studying about a marginalized group of people. Everything she learnt seemed to fit and decided that she must try to see if this was the cause of her depression.
She got her ears pierced, asked the doctor for help and then told her mum what she had done.
They tried to re-hypnotise her but, because of the ear piercing, it didn't work. Triggers were remembered and the first memory of the hypnosis came back. Over time all the memories of actually being a girl came back.
This might sound fanciful and a fairy tale but it's true, I'm now me and no one can make me pretend to be something other than myself every again, this is the final, a new beginning, for me.
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